Growth

I am not very patient,

especially while learning.

Growth,

Persistance,

Trial and error,

Mistakes,

Time.

All of it can be insanely frustrating.

However,

there's is so much to learn,

about ourselves,

about others.

There's character to build.

 Its taken maturity and time to figure this out.

I know that growth is necessary.

I know talents and character won't land in my lap.

But,

sometimes I act like it should, even though I know better.

Joy in the journey.

Easy to say, 

hard to do.

I got married about 13 years ago.

We were given a Nikon film SLR.

Jeff knew all about aperture, and shutter speed.

He knew all about film and lenses.

He tried to teach me.

Guess what?

I didn't wanna.

I was kind of a brat about it.

It was way too complicated,

 over my head.

 A few years ago

with an attitude change,

and some try

the lights finally came on.

 There was still sooooooo much to learn.

Sometimes I felt like giving up.

I knew that I could learn though,

so many people were.

The internet is such an amazing tool.

 A week ago

I took pictures of my beautiful niece.

She's expecting #1 baby girl any day.

Speaking of growth.

I've watched her grow from a toddler to

a beautiful woman.

She and I have a history.

I was part of her growth,

and my heart is full to watch her now.

What a blessing she's been to me.

I'm so proud of her.

I'm so happy she is happy.

I was in tears while I edited these photos.

Technically,

I felt very confident, 

and was super excited how they all turned out.

Photography is such an amazing gift.

And then there's the bond we have with each other, 

this allowed me to relax and apply all the growth

from prior experience.

  I have lots more to learn,

but I'm really excited about it.

 

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I will...

I will

 have a six pack.

I'm not sure when, 

but I'm on my way.

I've never had one.
I've never challenged my diet or my body.
After reading this info I KNOW I CAN do this.

So, someday I'll have a picture to share.

Almost there.

Uni-cycling.

It's a family sport.  

Jeff has bought one for each of us.

Now a few of us have to master a few solo revolutions.

I'm almost there.

Can you buy bubble wrap in yards?

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a 2011 goal & no school monday & a good question

Menu planning.

Spending less.

Stop forgetting my list.

A toothbrush was on my list. I forgot the list.  I used to my husband's toothbrush.

Don't judge me.

Today  there is no school.

: The girls and I are going to break out our brand new Singer Talent Sewing Machine, Modge Podge, and some pretty paper to attempt this-

I've been lacking in the crafting department for about 6 years.

My little girls are begging for time with mom, and crafts,

so this mom is going to sew today.

I don't sew so we'll see.

One question.
Did you know there are a gazillion ideas on the web?
I haven't really looked.
Holy Moly.
It was 5:00 am.
I was on my lap top in bed.
I totally got sucked into the www.

Now I want to be a crafty mama, a photo mama,
a cleaning mama, a baking mama, a blog mama,
an etsy mama, an organized mama, a decorating mama, a trendy mama.

The internet is a great tool, but good grief.

Can anything else in the world make a girl feel like being a mama is not enough?

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Me, Resolving.

“Great minds discuss ideas; Average minds discuss events; Small minds discuss people.”
Eleanor Roosevelt



This is my new motto.
I prefer to talk about deep things.
But sometimes I stoop down to more meager levels of communication.

The other day I was talking about someone.
Hours later, I was sick.

I thought about how to take back what I had done.

A novel idea.
Instead of talking about this person
her problems
her faults
I should pray for her.
Been taught that novel idea all my life.
I think its about time I do it.



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I worked out today, but...

Before I even start the warm up I'm dreading the pain.
Especially when I've gone weeks without a solid workout program.
I tell myself, "I'm going to workout today."
And then, I quit on myself.
I skip a workout.
Day after day.
I don't follow through with promises to myself.
Makes me kind of feel bad about me.

My clothes don't fit like they did.
I feel sluggish.
When I carry a sleeping girl up the stairs I think I might stop breathing.

And then.
An invitation.
Do I want to go to Hawaii?
Why yes!!!



Now, when I get the burn.
When the pain is there.
I think of myself on the beach,
with my fit self.
Not beating up on me.
Just enjoying it all- in a swimsuit.

Me? In Hawaii!
Soaking up the sun on the North Shore.
September 15-22
I can't believe it!!


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When I grow up...

Guess what? I've realized that I like to cut hair. I also LOVE to do make-up. I've always wanted to be a counselor or therapist, and I think it would be awesome to be personal trainer. So this is my idea. Do all four! Wouldn't it be awesome if you could go to one place to get all those services? Cutting hair and therapist go hand in hand. I wouldn't have to go to school for the therapist part, just sharpen my listening skills. I never got a degree and I'm seriously thinking about doing some or all of these things.
I like to look at people and imagine different hair
styles on them. I've recently discovered the
power of the mighty bobby pin. I gave myself a whole new do for church the other day when I
tucked my hair up in back and gave myself a fake bob. I think I had 20 people comment on my new haircut. It was fun.