MY FAMILY'S CIRCUS- The balancing act

I get up everyday to a job that I'll never be able to quit.

I look at my children and can't believe they are thriving despite my shortcomings.

Today as I woke them, fed them, and fixed their hair I thought about all the physical needs that I attend to for their sake.

Its important that my little girl looks like she belongs to somebody so I do her hair, usually while she protests.

Its important for them to be clean and dressed in a clothes without holes and stains.  

All through the day we tend to physical needs and some days are are full of them!!

This leads me into what I've been thinking about it.


I give great attention to all things physical, in fact some days I think I give too much attention to them. I feel like there's a HUGE imbalance. Too much physical, and not enough spiritual. 


My kids run out to catch the bus.  They're all ready-lunches made, backpacks with permission slips signed, homework usually done, hair done, faces clean.  

Then they come home- soccer practice, homework, chores.

The thing is, its how our world works.  The inner man is not seen.  We see only the clothes, the cars, the homes.  We judge a man, a child, by his stuff.  Its shallow, and I don't like it, but I feed into it. 

I feed into it because, honestly, it feeds my pride.  If my child is dressed to the nines, it makes me look like I have my act together.  


Mom's need a payoff. 

So we spend a bunch of time tending to shallow stuff.  


This morning my kids ran out to catch the bus, anyone that saw them would think they looked ready for school.  

Mostly, they were.


But I knew different.

I hadn't prayed with them.

I wish that it was easier to spend more time on the things that really mean something.  

I think I'm beginning to understand other forms of religion.
Some put aside all worldliness.  






Its no small feat to  put off pride and be humble.  


To find fulfillment in things that will not bring the attention of men is difficult for me.




As you look at the remainder of the pictures on this post, you will my sweet girl.  She is spunky and keeps me on my toes. 
Her character and personality are what I love most about her. 

I could take pictures of her all day long and post them but you can't see her, not really. 

I hope my kids are learning the worth of a soul.

I hope they feel confident without wearing all the right things.


Cause I'm still working on it.

♥