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Every morning I wake up with a head full of things to do. I scramble around trying to put them in lists of importance all while trying to keep the peace within my little brood (trying to recall everything I've learned and read about parenting at the same time.) I love being a wife and the quirks that come with having my man forever. I love to be creative and thrive on crossing off my to do list. I strive to find balance and put first things first which brings me PEACE & JOY and allows me to sleep so much easier when I do. I think that one of the secrets to being HAPPY in life is to find that balance. I'm learning how to be kinder to myself and learning patience in progress. Everyday, through the thick and thin of life I'm trying to turn my heart towards heaven and remember what's really important.Oh, and I love to eat, so much so that I love to exercise too.

1.11.2011

Calm and collected



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From the moment they walked through the door they were fighting.
It didn't stop until they were all tucked in.
But it lasted...
Through homework.
Through dinner.
Through FHE.
But I'm very happy to announce I stayed calm and collected.
I did not add to the frazzle dazzle.
I didn't, however, know how to bring laughter and peace.
I was fuming inside.
I was on the brink of tears.
I didn't let the frusteration give way to anger.
Which is usually the case.
That's when the yelling errupts.
But, how oh how do I vanish the contention calmly?
My childhood home was mostly contentious.
Yelling, demands, and belittlement.
Laughter was scarce.
 Experience is lacking.
 
Ideas came after they were in bed.
Maybe I can sneek off to my room and put my hair in a funny ponytail,
sing a solo with the fake micriphone.
 
or
 
play on old family video
 
or
 
a group hug and tickle fest.
 
Jeff snuggled up to me.
I was drifting off to sleep.
Words came from his heart.
 "I'm proud of you for keeping calm."
 
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3 comments:

  1. Alicia1/11/2011 9:02 AM

    That is awesome. I kept my cool last night too. It was hard. I was so angry, uncomfortable being pregnant. Sick. Mess everywhere. Cleaning up over and over. Football games lasted 3 hours. Lonely the whole day. Went to bed thinking, "just get this day over with." Angry. Totally could have and usually I would have just blamed Brandon and told him how mad I was at him. But I just said, "I'm not mad at you. I love you." And it was so much better than if I had started a fight. So yesterday wasn't the best, but this morning we got to start over, fresh. And there was no regret or being sorry from the fight the night before because we didn't have one! Yay! Good post, Kim!

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  2. Marilyn1/11/2011 2:41 PM

    I love your thoughts and words. They are so thoughtful and genuine!

    Thanks for inspiring me to keep my cool :)

    Love ya,
    Marilyn

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  3. DeAnne1/13/2011 10:18 PM

    I can really relate to how you feel about your childhood. I have many of the same thoughts and feelings. We want to be different and so much better. When things are stressful, we default parent..the way we were parented. I have to fight really, really hard to be different. Sometimes I fail, but we just have to keep fighting. We won't be perfect, but I think we ARE different because we are aware of what needs to be. You are a very thoughtful person. Just keep up the good fight. You might get your butt kicked a little, but It is one worth fighting for. You will win!

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