Man, the more I find out the way my brain works as a woman the more I realize why I drive myself nuts!!! I've been paralyzed to blog because there's just so much to say and not enough time to sit down.
Some of my thoughts are of:
- My mom, oh how I miss her. I'm dealing with the grief, step by step, little by little. I'm doing much better than I have been in last month. I've been able to SERVE and that's made all the difference. I'm trying to think outside my own brain lately and find it therapeutic not to be wrapped up in myself and all my issues. It seems through this grieving that all my uglies surfaced. By uglies, I mean, my faults. When I'm sad, scared, and just feeling down I tend to try to make everything perfect around me. Doesn't quite work when you have four small children, a home, and a husband. Finding, that I just can't make 'em perfect. So here I am trying to figure out again how to deal with this trial and I'm finding that prayer, compassion, encouragement, creating, and just serving others is doing so much for my ♥.
- And so for the moment, I have a happy home. I'm more patient with my family when I do more for them. My husband and kids are thriving. Seems like they do better when I'm happier and I look for the good that they do. GO FIGURE!! At the same time I remember not to forget myself and I will be starting an exercise program today. I've been medicating with food and not exercising and needless to say I feel a little doughy.
- I love my friends. So many loving people have reached out to me. One of my good friends invited me to Phantom of the Opera
last weekend. The company was amazing and I LOVE the stage. I didn't love the story itself, to whacked out for me. - I would love to blog more but I HATE getting sucked into the computer. Seems like important things like my little ones get pushed aside. Anybody have suggestions. Do you have a schedule? Allot yourself so much time? Post your own post before you go to Google Reader? Any tips. I LOVE BLOGGING but I also have a life.
It really is amazing just how differently men and womens' minds work. But that is a good thing. I see it as just another reason that the Lord made us different. There are things that each of us are able to do better than the other, and that is a good thing because then we actually compliment each other with our own strengths and weaknesses.
ReplyDeleteI can't even begin to understand fully what you are feeling or going through in your grieving process, but I have always heard that serving helps. I am so glad that you are finding peace and fulfillment in the face of your loss through serving your family and those around you. You are just wonderful Kim!
As for blogging. If I am going to post, I always do it before checking any other blogs. And lately I've only been blogging early in the morning and then in again in the evenings when the kids are in bed. Occasionally, I'll check around for comments during quiet moments in the day. But I've been spending less time at the computer and that is a good thing for this blog addicted girl!
Just want you to know that I was happy to read your post. I've missed your wise words.
It was fun to see you today! I love, love the new banner picture! It's so great! Good luck with the balance thing. Let me know if you uncover any wisdom!
ReplyDeleteFirst, I love your new header. That picture of you with your hubby and kids is so, so cute.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy to hear that your family is thriving. It's amazing how much our own moods affect those around us.
As for blogging, I try to blog only when I know I don't have laundry to do, or urgent chores. My kids are usually at school, and Gracie either plays beside me, or is watching a show. I also try to only post when I want to share something, and when I do, I don't do anything else like check other blogs or other time consuming things. I save that for different times.
Good luck balancing! It is always a struggle :)
That was funny! I'll have to have Vern watch it later. I love the story of the Phantom, but at least we have the love of the music in common :) See you Tues!
ReplyDeleteJust had to tell you I love your new header! It's dang cute. I understand the whole blogging thing too. I've decided, if I'm lucky, to get 2 to 3 posts in a month so at least my family can see what's going on with us. Take care :) :) :)
ReplyDeletehee hee, didn't you love that video? I think I found my "nothing box" but I had to learn how to meditate first.
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