They're growing up...or so I've been told

This year I sent my two boys off to school. Sadly, it wasn't as difficult to send my second to Kindergarten as it was my first. I knew he was ready to go and I'd been counting the days about half way through the summer right after we put our house for sale. Keeping house with only two as opposed to four is much much easier. Soon they will all be in school and my life will be different.



I wonder what I might do in those hours of kidlessness. Its hard to say. I'm sure, knowing me, that I'll have any even longer to do list than I have now because I'll think I can accomplish twice as much without kids under toe. I do know that the smell and sights of Craft Warehouse will be much more enjoyable without the tugs and wines of little ones who would rather be at the park or at home with their play things. Its actually been quite some time that I've set foot in that store or had the time to actually do any crafty things. Oh well, the time will come, so I've been told- it seems a gazillion times lately. I've ran into a lot of people that haven't seen my kids for awhile and they all comment and how much they've grown. And then, I see pictures of my college roommates' siblings and time has shown its mark. I didn't know that adulthood would fly by so quickly. I suppose its the never ending list of to dos and the hustle and bustle of life that keeps me thinking that days are sometimes just to get through and not seen as moments of my existence adding up to one lifetime. I think the most difficult thing to handle while raising children is wondering if the pass of time has been used in guiding my little ones to be GREAT and SUCCESSFUL at adulthood. I'm afraid that my slip ups and grownup seriousness may not be conducive to what my children need to be just that. I'm sure that I'm not the first to wonder if I'm being a good mother, but there is so much to it that I feel as though I might be missing something. They are growing up!!! While in the thick of things sometimes I don't see their progress, nor do I think about the little people they are becoming. Wow, I started with the first day of school and now I'm rambling about all this serious stuff. So serious... I think I'm just a bit uptight...I really think with this clean house that I've been sporting lately (I'm trying to sell it) I need to host a girl's night. I just read my friend Missy's blog and it just looks tempting to forget about all the seriousness and be silly with my friends. I just might have to do that!!!